Galatians 3:3-6 "Are you so foolish? After beginning by means of the Spirit, are you now trying to finish by means of the flesh? Have you experienced so much in vain—if it really was in vain? So again I ask, does God give you his Spirit and work miracles among you by the works of the law, or by your believing what you heard?"
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Proverbs 16:9
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps."
Kalei
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Proverbs 16:9
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps."
Expectation—preconceived tags for
greatness or failure put on by others or yourself. Do we let them dictate who we are,
what to say or throw away the tags and just be ourselves? There are times we may be weighed down by expectations, whether brought
on from others or ourselves. We have a choice to let it break
us or make us strong. Having an original goal of being a
music therapy major I am beginning to realize how much music is used every day
as therapy not only for myself, but many others as well. I often find it to be the easiest way to express myself under difficult
situations. In a video journal on their song Warn, Tenth Avenue North's lead singer,
Mike Donehey, points out that it is rarely the things in life that are the most
comfortable where we see God's hand at work.
He has a point. It can be a good
thing to complain or just talk it out even with yourself, but if a solution is
not found from it what is the point?
Instead why not try
to look at it from God's perspective?
Why not ask God what
he wants to teach us through this circumstance?
In another discussion about their song, The Struggle,
Tenth Avenue North’s lead singer, Mike Donehey, points out that it's often in hardships we cry out to the
Lord to take them away when we need to be careful to note being a believer does
not guarantee life will be easier.
He goes on and
reiterates that it's often in hardships we cry out to the Lord to take them
away when we need to be careful to note being a believer does not guarantee
life will be easier.
We are so
often our own worst enemies. Striving to
live to my fullest potential and looking into a scholarships for the years to
follow, I often get into the habit of living up to some sort of self-made
expectations. What I've come to realize
is this: I cannot change the world or help others unless I allow life to change
me and I may not change the world, but I will give all I can. When in the end, the only thing that I will
regret is not trying no matter the accomplishments. For too long I have convinced myself I wanted
to do more with my gifts other than simply perform. At least that’s how it began. Eventually it turned into fear of getting a
big head, then not living up to some self-made expectation. Not that music therapy is good or bad, but I
need to make sure it alines with God's plan for my life and use music in a way
to best serve Him.
Now there is a book called Don't Shoot
I'm the Guitar Man. It was
supposed to be made into a film, but I can't seem to find it anywhere. Well I picked this up some time ago because
the title seemed interesting to me. It
wasn't till much later I realized how much of an impact it would have on my
life. As the story goes there was this
boy who grew to love music and started playing at bars in his 20s and
eventually became a professional singer.
I never really got to finish the book, but my point is somewhere along
the way he ended up teaching music to people in prison. There is also a movie I really love called
Broken Hill. It is about an Australian
composer whose dad wants him to be a sheep herder; however he has always had a
love for music and composition. He then
aspires to win a music scholarship, but to apply he needs musicians who can
play his music. Hanging out with the
wrong crowd he gets into trouble with the law and convinces the prison to allow
him to spend community service composing a song for a group of prisoners for
his scholarship. What do these two have
in common? You probably guessed it
already. They both worked in
prisons. Not only so, but they used
music in a therapeutic way to give prisoners something substantial to do other
than from breaking the law.
This is one path I never would have even
imagined, but through this as well as a few personal volunteering experiences,
I have recently gained a passion for doing the same, serving those in prisons
through music. I guess I could say it's
my fault for asking how I can fully use my talent to serve him. I have a strong feeling and pull toward a
field of mission work as a Christian singer and music therapist in
prisons. The total opposite of my
original intentions. Well thanks God,
How am I gonna get there? I mean I
thought it would, as Mike Donehey puts it, "make life easier...more
comfortable." Right? Yes it may have been my initial thought, but
in a since it was all worth it. I was
surprised to find out many of the teenagers in the detention center write songs
as a stress reliever or at least have a musical talent of some sort. It may not be easier and I will definitely
need more determination to pursue on with the journey set ahead of me, but it
is through the search of God's plan for my life I have begun to find true
freedom in Him fully surrendering to Him.
The funny thing is I went to the school I am at now specifically to
pursue Music Therapy, but then God pulled in the reigns and was like “I've got
bigger plans”.
Come to
think about it until recently I never really sat down to ask God what he
thought anyway. Now I am on a mission
slowly, but surely. A mission to bring a
light to a place of darkness with hope that they too will learn to find freedom
in the Lord; freedom from the bondage to the sins that clenches onto them so
dearly. It may only be a short term
mission with the D-homes or it may be a lifetime of service. Whatever it may be I will not act in haste,
nor with force, but patience, endurance and an act of following His lead. The best advice I have been given is “I am
not famous. [God is]” ~B Hayley or as Mike Donehey says Get Smaller, “If you
don’t wanna hold a toilet brush you got no business holding a microphone…” So which will you choose: Allow your tags of expectation to represent
or define you? Or simply doing your best
and put to bed all the tags marked all over you?
~Blessings,Kalei